05.04.2008 Nervous

and the count down continues.
two more days and it's off to Amsterdam.
i'm nervous as all hell.
i'm not much of a traveler.
I prefer to stay at home and veg out.
this whole travel to europe thing is kind of stressing me out.
i hope once i get there, i'll feel better but right now, i'm nervous as all hell.
I got my bags packed, i just have to put the snacks and the magazines and books to read and ipod in the backpack.
Neighbor is looking after the cat.
The lawn is moved and the water timers are actually working which is cool.
i'm going to start using the timers to water the lawn in the summer. cool.
The house is clean. cleaner than it's been even before i moved in.
the new rule of anything comes in, something of equal or greater value has to go out (I bought some shorts and a "polo" shirt so i pulled out an old pair of shorts and old small "polo".

I'm now sure how this is going to work out traveling and living with Oh 25/7?
that's one of my biggest fears.
Right now i can get away from him when he annoys me, but in europe, he'll be around all the damn time.
I have a feeling what's going to happen is he's going to want me to leave him alone and wander off in the city by my self and then if i get back, he'll be gone, visiting his friends.

I already told Oh, he has a habit of making plans and not letting anyone know until the very last minute so it's difficult to change plans and if they do change plans, they are the "bad guys" and he's the "good guy".

i'm all nervous as hell.
i'm not much of a traveler.

Sexy sexy cowboy. he looks very determined

04.24.2008 And so it goes

Oh asks me where i want to go to dinner, anyplace i want to go to dinner.
So i say How about buckhorn and Oh says no don't like that place. Oh says anyplace you wanna go.
how bout paesanos?
Oh says no, had dinner there last night and the portions are too small. nope. anyplace you want.
how about tower?
Oh says, no, i had brunch there.
and so it goes, he picks where he wants to go and we go.

So, Oh asks me where i want to go to when we go to Europe....
do i have to repeat what i just wrote above?
ok, it's fun
So Oh asks me where i want to go to when we go to Europe.
I say ok, London, Paris, Italy, Spain.
Wait for it......
Oh says No way to Paris, i hate the place it's not nice and i hate the people. No paris.
London?
Oh says are you set on London? cause it's so so expensive and i don't want to fly through Heathrow
Italy?
Oh says, no really interesting place, it didn't impress me.
Spain?
Spain is really great but it's way out in the middle of no where and hard to get to and far away from eveything but it's a hawt place.

and so it goes of course, we will end up going to places he wants to go.
visiting friends of his in Amsterdam and staying in Amsterdamn/netherlands the whole time.
He loves gay bars so we will end up visiting his regular gay bar hangouts in Amsterdamn.

I'm going to europe and i'll probably only see gay bars.
i knew this was going to happen so i can't beat myself up over it.



Hot looking guy in a wifebeater

04.20.2008 Monks and Europe

Nothing comes into my house unless something goes out.
It's a new rule and i'll see how long i follow.
If i buy a new shirt, an old one gets donated away.
A New magazine, one gets thrown away.
New towels, old ones are gone.
You get the idea.
I'm trying to get rid of all the clutter i have in the house right now.
I"m going from room to room and throwning out junk that i've packratted.
in the end, i will have the bare minimum in the house, only what is necessary and
try to keep it that way.
A Monks House.

we'll see?

Countdown to the Europe trip.
Not sure where we are going or what we are doing.
I just know that we are going to Amsterdam.
Oh wants to go to Spain/Stiges and i kind of wanted to do the Eastern European countries.
Prague, Munich, Vienna, etc.
he wants to avoid England, France and i think italy.
Well, anyway, it's Europe and i've never been.

You look awful pretty in that cowboy hat

04.02.2008 Are We There Yet?

Are we really going to go to europe in May?

rumor is that we are going to London, Amsterdam, Prague, Munich, maybe Vienna maybe Italy maybe France Maybe Spain.
Well, it's all "Maybe"

I have to ask for three weeks off from work so i'll do that tomorrow to get this "Maybe" a go.

I still wonder about the cat.
I still wonder about the lawn.

I'd rather not go but that's my fear of the unknown speaking.
If i had my choice, i'd rather go to NYC and spend a week there. to me that sounds like fun but Europe? that's scary so maybe that's why i should go.

Wednesday Jeff O looks good in a RedHat

03.30.2008 Xavier's Choice

I have the choice.
Today is sunday and this weekend i spent it spring cleaning the garage and the two closets. it's been really messy and the dust in the garage made me think i had a cold but, i don't. This garage spring cleaning and the clostet cleaning started when Oh commented on cleaning up the garage. So that's what i did, he of course said he was going to help out but decided to be anyplace else but here helping me clean the garage. He left for SF to he can have sex with two of his fuckbuddies.

I have a choice.
The garage is looking nicer but i have to do something with the mountain of comic books. I have to weed out everything that is worthless and decide what i want with the other stuff, i should research EBay because i am thinking of getting rid of all the comic books. I have stuff i haven't even read.
The closets are looking better but still need work. It was probably good that Oh was gone so that i could get into the spare bedroom clean out that thing and throw away all those damn old magazines (why am i keeping them? and why am i such a pack rat?).

I have a choice.
Tomorrow i have to do some yard work (it's the ceasar chavez day off from work!) i love days off but it's another work day for me in the yard. not much of a holiday for me.

I have a choice.
Oh comes back tomorrow. this whole spring cleaning started because of him. He implied that the garage, the coffee table, the diner room table, the closets the backyard were messy and needed work. so i'm doing them one week at a time. He's was in Europe playing around for three weeks while i was spring cleaning the house and the garage. He comes back and promptly goes to SF and i'm still spring cleaning.

Do i say what's on my mind that i'm annoyed that he's out of a job and i'm here spring cleaning the things/rooms/areas he implied were dirty/messy? or do i just not say anything? I really don't want to hear his sexploitations of this weekend with the two guys. I was getting dirty while he was getting nasty. That's not any fun and it bugs me. Do i say this? I don't think so, he doesn't want to hear any of this and i really don't think he cares. it's best choice is to write this down and vent online and let it go.

that's my choice.

Sunday Cowboy hats. This guys looks cute in the cowboy hat and in his underoos

03.17.2008 Spring Purging

It's sad or is it? that i found some joy in spring cleaning this weekend.
Ok probably sad but still, it's nice to purge some of the junk in the house.
I'll be on this weekly purge for a couple of weekends, then i'll have to start working on the outside yard.
it's a damn embarrassing mess.
Oh will be back on Monday Eve. I'll miss my alone time and my house and my regular lazy solitary routine.

I think a lot of my coworkers think i'm nutzo and they kind of stay away from me which is pretty cool. I think
i'm starting to over do it too, kind of like the attention sometimes when i crazy out so i have to start watching that. Be less psycho and more even tempered. I was supposed to be the neutral on at work but lately i've been slipping back into the crazy one.

Finished the funny and goood Middlesex. I thought it was going to be all serious and it ended up being a pretty funny book. I'm glad i read it but i don't think i'll be an Oprah book club member. I'd recommend Middlesex because it was pretty humorous. I'm now reading Lullabye by the guy who wrote Fight Club (Chuck something starts with a P) it seems to be more of a odd horror story and he gives a lot of detail to the oddness. it's a short book but so far it's keeping my attention.

I think he's latino, he's hot and those arms are amazing, he's hot, he must be latino.

03.09.2008 Spring Fever

I have spring fever.
it's so pretty outside.
a perfect sunday.
did my nice light sunday chest workout and shoulder.
No one really cute at the gym, no eye candy but that's ok, i go to workout so it's good.
did a a lot of laundry and then went shopping.
bought this cute green trucker hat (i know, those are out of style but it's still cute), tight green tshirt for St. Patrick's Days, and some levi's jeans.
Came home, cooked for the week and took a long nice nap wiht all the window's open.
the weather is perfectly perfect for spring.
I have spring fever.
I still have a load of spring cleaning to do but i have two more weeks before Oh gets back.
I'm loving this time without Oh in the house.
Oddly, with the weather So So nice, i wanted to go to the club for the Beer Bust and if Oh was here, i definitely would have gone. All rested up and spring fevered to see the cute guys in the daylight.

I'll just stay home and watch Gone Baby Gone, instead of going out.

Cute guy in a Cowboy Hat